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I’ve been a lazy blogger this week. Do you ever just not feel well, but there’s nothing in particular wrong with you? I tried looking up symptoms online and that didn’t work. Or maybe it did work and I’m just plagued by thousands of rare diseases. I just want to sleep for a week and wake up and everything will be awesome. I have millions of plans, but the thought of doing anything or going anywhere fills me with anxiety. I can never tell whether I really do need a break or if I’m just reverting to my hermit ways. Ideally I would like to move to a desolate area of Northern California and be a marijuana farmer. I could just read, have lots of puppies and kittens to play with, do yoga under the canopies of trees, and help people with illnesses feel good, while also putting a small dent in the pharmaceutical industry. It would be a win-win-win-win situation.
I’m supposed to go to my sister’s work function in a few hours and I know I could use the networking opportunity. Plus, she’s leaving for Chicago in August so it will be one of our last hurrahs. I just don’t feel like it. I have a yoga class at 9:30am tomorrow and I need to think up a sequence or theme. If I get back at 2 a.m., I know I won’t get up to create one. My teacher/boss had suggested that I use quotes that resonate with me as themes for classes. Here is my favorite quote and the reason I began working for myself:
“How in the hell could a man enjoy being awakened at 6:30 a.m. by an alarm clock, leap out of bed, dress, force-feed, shit, piss, brush teeth and hair, and fight traffic to get to a place where essentially you made lots of money for somebody else and were asked to be grateful for the opportunity to do so?” – Charles Bukowski, Factotum
Somehow that doesn’t translate. Unless I said, “Today, let’s experience true freedom from all that restrains us. Do whatever poses you want.” Or I could use an even more vulgar Bukowski quote (since he is a genius) and just shock them. Okay enough feeling sorry for myself. Time to go on a hunt for those furry little paws I heard shuffling by while writing this. My furby needs some smothering from her mama.
My next post will be full of positivity, butterflies (though butterflies are caterpillars with wings so I don’t like them), and rainbows.
P.S. I’ve tried commenting on some blog posts and I’ve been considered spam. You may have a gem in your spam folder from yours truly.
i can so relate to those feelings, and not being quite sure if you’re always qualified to be on the path that you’ve choosen……congrats, we are human! i’ve really found some insight to my uncertainties from the book “the gifts of imperfection” by brene brown……i think you’d enjoy it too! we are not alone, and there is peace in that. get out and mingle….take advantage of sharing your message of yoga! and know that your students are just happy to have you present…..we don’t have to shock and awhh everytime we lead a practice……hit some some salutes, thrown in with some chairs, lunges and backbends…….then some well deserved relaxation…. give them 10 minutes worth, and remind them that when we work hard, it’s important to rest equally as hard! enjoy your day, enjoy your passion, and be well!
Thank you so much for that. You always have the most insightful comments and make me feel much better. You’re right. Deep down, I know that I know the poses, sequencing, etc. and don’t always need to have it so planned out, but I’m still getting over the nerves. I will definitely check out that book.
you’re welcome, and thank you for the wonderful words….remember if you’re shining your light from your heart….there will always be warmth for all to enjoy. hope your weekend has gone well!
For the class theme how about: I just don’t know what to do with myself? Guaranteed that your students have met that theme before. Show them how a yogi deals.
I wish I read this before!!!!! That would have been good. I really just went with my intuition and it was fine. Thanks for reading and the advice!
That cat photo is sooooo adorable, no matter how down anyone might be, that photo has to bring a smile to your face! In general you find the best photos. (:
Thank you! Nothing beats a picture of a cute kitten.
sooooooooooo relate to everything in this post! also, if you ever get ’round to moving to nor-cal, please do let me know if you’ll be needing interns
Haha. I don’t have a green thumb, so you’re hired! Plus I’ll need lots of help tending to my farm of stray animals. I hear kangaroos are like rabbits on meth so I’ll be looking for wranglers. If you know anyone willing to trade punches and kicks for surplus they’re in too.
erm…i’m great with plants, but as regards the animals, can i be in charge of those puppies and kittens you mentioned? also, not so good with bugs…don’t worry – there’s plenty of time. we’ll sort it out. also, you should contact wp re: this comment-spamming issue. not cool!
You can have puppy and kitten care. I’ll tackle the kangaroos, wombats, and polar bears. I’m just waiting for a reply from WP. Then, I’ll be back in business.
P.S. I left an extremely insightful comment on your latest post (ha). But, I’ve been relegated to the spam list! It’s probably “the man” punishing me for my federally illegal dreams.
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I’m honored! Thank you so much.